Another Sleepless Night

By Lisa Are Wulf ~

spiritual-living-another-sleepless-nightDoes this happen to you?  You fall asleep, only to wake up again just a few hours later.  When this happens, I’m generally consumed by thoughts of what I didn’t do.  What I didn’t do spiritually, that is.  I lay in bed thinking, “I forgot to read the Bible today.”  Or, “I missed my regular prayer time.”  Whatever the thought, I’m always delinquent in my service to God!

I wonder if this is about God – or is it really about me?  Does God require such slavish devotion or am I consumed with trying to earn his favor?  I’m a seminary graduate and I know the answer, but somehow that doesn’t stop my nocturnal nitpicking.

When I’ve prayed about it, the clear answer is always “Don’t worry so much about this.”  And I know it’s true.  I try to center my life on God.  He’s my first thought in the morning and my last at night.  And I believe that’s how he wants it.  A friend once told me that the chief end of mankind is to glorify God and enjoy him forever.  I’m pretty good at the glorifying.  But enjoyment –  that’s another thing entirely.

Maybe it’s time to just chill and hang out with God.  My “internal spiritual task-master” needs a good night’s sleep!