By Lisa Are Wulf ~
Does this happen to you? You fall asleep, only to wake up again just a few hours later. When this happens, I’m generally consumed by thoughts of what I didn’t do. What I didn’t do spiritually, that is. I lay in bed thinking, “I forgot to read the Bible today.” Or, “I missed my regular prayer time.” Whatever the thought, I’m always delinquent in my service to God!
I wonder if this is about God – or is it really about me? Does God require such slavish devotion or am I consumed with trying to earn his favor? I’m a seminary graduate and I know the answer, but somehow that doesn’t stop my nocturnal nitpicking.
When I’ve prayed about it, the clear answer is always “Don’t worry so much about this.” And I know it’s true. I try to center my life on God. He’s my first thought in the morning and my last at night. And I believe that’s how he wants it. A friend once told me that the chief end of mankind is to glorify God and enjoy him forever. I’m pretty good at the glorifying. But enjoyment – that’s another thing entirely.
Maybe it’s time to just chill and hang out with God. My “internal spiritual task-master” needs a good night’s sleep!